focused on the specifics

I’ve gotten several races under my belt so far this season. It’s bizarre not running or racing for years and then coming back like nothing has happened.

In fact, I don’t even think the people watching me race even know that I was on my deathbed.  Racing has been fun. I cannot even explain the joy of being back.  I had a coach tell me I had “already won” and I laughed because even though I have, I told him the WR was for me. It’s a personal thing.

But right now my cardio is at 1:55 (no joke, it’s scary good) and my legs are at a 2:09…which means I’m focused now on getting my speed together so that I can make it happen at US Indoors at the end of this month.  My legs are honestly the only thing I can tell that is keeping me back and even so it’s still so early to be complaining. I can only progress as fast as my body allows (and since it’s been 5 years I have no idea how quickly that will be), so I do the work and I hope for the best.  But when I pray, it’s only to stay healthy. It’s not about winning because me being healthy will ultimately be winning.

The focus now is #1 staying healthy. #2 getting my legs back so that I can “switch gears” in races (which I used to be good at). #3 enjoying being back in it…even if that means getting my ass kicked at first.

I’m just very thankful. I feel like I’m winning the lotto… like everyday!